And there’s glitter on the floor

YAAAAY!!! THe crocusses are here again, the sun is shining, people are happy for no reason, in other words:

SPRING IS COMING UP!!!!!

Valentines

Happy Valentines ^^
(And yay for Johnny Wander)

I’m waiting for the night to fall

Is spring coming up?

All around me I see people make drastic changes in their lives, especially when it comes to love.

I broke up with Basje a few weeks ago, and now Thomas and Sanne are single, Janna is too, and so are my niece, aunt and schoolmate.
That makes a grand total of 6 couples (that I know of) in 3 weeks time O.o

Luckily there’s positive messages on the side of love as well. One of my nieces is getting married this year, and another niece is getting a “samenlevingscontract”. A girl from church will also get married in 2011.

Extra special in the two marriage messages is that both girls have parents who got divorced not too long ago. I am so happy to see that they have not lost faith in love and marriage. You may call me a hopeless romantic, but I still believe in true and undying love.

Valentines however, is not something I’m looking forward to this year… But who knows, maybe next year I’ll be head-over-heels again ^^

A new day

2 maanden later…
Sorry voor mijn gebrek aan updates. Ik heb een vol hoofd gehad.
Nu dus maar weer eens een updateopsomming XD

December:
- 4 December de crematie van mijn oma. Het was erg emotioneel, maar ook heel mooi.
- Sinterklaas gevierd met mn ouders en Thomas, met kadootjes die we nog van oma hadden gekregen.
- Kerstavond bij mijn ouders geweest, 1e kerstdag bij Basje’s familie, 2e kerstdag:
- Berlijn! Ik ben even tussendoor lekker in mn eentje naar Berlijn geweest om uit te waaien ^^ Het was super!
- Oud en Nieuw heb ik bij Marieke gevierd, heel gezellig, as always :p

Januari:
- 18 januari is het (na, af en aan, twee jaar) uitgegaan met Basje
- 31 januari was ik jarig XD Ben echt overstelpt met kaarten en berichtjes, zo lief!

En dan zijn we bij vandaag! Morgen geven Nynke en ik een feest, en nu ga ik verder met de voorbereidingen daarvoor XD

Knuf,
Anne

And no one dared disturb the sound of silence

The clouds are rolling in fast, this will be your last snowfall
You will always be in the snow for me.
Tender, soft, and with enough power
to make everyone stop and stare in awe.

I want to tell you I love you
I want to share all memories
I want to laugh freely one more time
I want to thank you for being there for me.

We made so many memories, they keep dancing in my eyes.
As you chose your own path, I will choose mine:
Deliberately, passionate, and slightly strong headed.
I see you in me, everyday, more and more

I want to tell you I love you
I want to share all memories
I want to laugh freely one more time
I want to thank you for being there for me.

You’ve been strong so far, now it’s our turn.
You’ve shown us a full life, now we will fill ours
You said goodbye, and we will miss you forever.
Thank you for being a part of me for ever.
Thank you for being a part of me for ever.

This will be your last snowfall

On monday the 29th of November, at 12:05, my grandmother has passed away.

She went peacefully in a deep sleep, and we are glad that she didn’t have to suffer and got the end she’d wished for.

My parents (and my aunt and uncle) were with her, it was emotional, but good.

Her cremation ceremony will be on upcoming saturday, the 4th of December, at 13:00 in Heerenveen.

 

And echoed in the wells of silence

Ok. This is a less happy post…
Waaaay less.
Just warning you.

Last week my grandma went to Groningen to get her surgery. I blogged about her being ill before, and since then a lot has changed. Two weeks ago her situation got worse all of the sudden, when she couldn’t hold her food anymore. The got admitted to the hospital then, and it turned out that the way out of her stomach got blocked, and she could not eat anymore. So she got IV-food, which turned out to be great for her: she got a lot of her strength back, and she felt better than she had in a while. I’ve visited her in the hospital a couple of times (Basje came with me aswell), and she made a strong and lively impression.

The date for her surgery got set on november 4th. Which was last week. The big thing with the surgery was that if there would be any dissemination, they would cancel the surgery, and there would be no chance for help.

This was the case.

When the surgeons opnened her up, they saw disseminations all over the place, on pretty much all of her organs in sight. So there is no helping her anymore, the surgeons said it could take months or weeks, but that’s it.
And now my grandma has decided she does not want to become a vegetable, or a nuissance (as she puts it), and she want’s to die with dignity, so she has chosen to get euthanasia.

I understand her motivation, and I know it’s probably best, but right now all I can do when I think about her being gone is cry… She will be in Lindenstede (yes, that’s where my mom works at) for the remaining weeks of her life, and the process (speaking about it with doctors, filling out forms and such) of euthanasia will probably take 2/3 weeks, after which she will die.

It’s harsh. But I guess that’s life…

MAJOR EDIT!!!

Turns out I got one detail wrong (yay for communication… not):

The euthanasia process thing takes two weeks, BUT then they won’t kill her right away, she will then proceed to live happily ever after, and if she gets worse, and her lifequality gets bad, THEN they will “help her out”.

Big relief here